Silence speaks a thousand words. But, when that silence becomes silent, it gets so loud within you that even a sandstorm seems to be mild. You try to pull yourself out but something is pushing you so hard that sustainability becomes difficult.  

Even the chirpiest of bird sits on a branch quietly and looks far and wide searching for a direction to fly. The same happens with us too. There comes a stage when we want to be left alone, when we want to be quiet, when even a pin drop irritates us like a drum beat. This is when you want to get some silence. Just with yourself, when you don’t want anyone with you, even the closest of people seem to be so distant.

Some instances, some incidents, some situations hit you so hard that it settles down in your heart and mind. It touches you so deep that you find yourself drowning along with it. That thought becomes so heavy that without realizing it weighs you down. It changes you in many ways, changes your attitude and perception towards things, people and life. We can call this ‘being low in life’ where everything seems to be meaningless.

You find yourself flowing with that truth or the thought until one day you realize what have you lost behind you. On looking back, the trail is so long that you can’t turn around to grab it again. What’s gone is gone. That one thought, that one feeling gets you so engrossed that you start losing yourself. You give up on your relations, your confidence, your patience, your self control and those priceless moments of your life.

You are misunderstood, you feel pained. You want to cry, but are not able to, you want to talk but can’t, you want to be understood without explaining, want to walk away but certain things hold you. Gradually, you find yourself going down the stream which is the easier way to go, leaving everything, giving up on yourself and on things. No expectations from anyone, no false hopes, no commitments!

But, till when can you go like this. Standing up is the way of life, moving ahead is the law of life. The road ahead you is quite long my friend and you can’t keep your eyes closed while walking. You have to look around, you have to peep within yourself, you have to walk straight. Realizing this is very difficult.

Smiling with a storm within you is very difficult, but what has to be done, is to be done! You cannot stay within your shell forever, the bright light outside can be sharp but you need to face it. Sometimes, the path might seem a bit lonely but you need to walk on it. You need to look up because there are people who depend on you, your attitude, your behavior affects them.

For someone, for yourself, you need to break that silence within you, you need to speak out, share, cry, shout, laugh and laugh till it hurts. Open up to that one person you trust. Talk your heart out, find a solution because you cannot let anything kill you. Often life shows you its best, so it deserves to show you some bad too. Just grab it, tie a knot and burry it deep down so that it can never pull you along again! 

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