I can say that I live today
Hope for tomorrow
Smiled in the past
Dealt with every laughter and sorrow…

I am left with….
New beginnings
A fair chance
Some pleasant endings
A belief, for life to enhance….

I am left with…
Truth in a transparent heart
Confidence that shall never part
Conviction to cross the seas
And love, ocean like deep….

I am left with….
So much in life
That hoping for good
Seems to be fine!!!

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Some paths unknown
Some lead to one’s home
Some dried and shaky
With leaves tattered and torn

In the forest
Lie hidden secrets
Some buried
Some waiting to be heeded

Afar some waterfall hails
Sound so crisp
Making the air sail
Soaking it in watery trails…..

There sings a bird so sweet
Making the forest a perfect retreat,
Dancing in the rain
Somewhere a peacock flourishes again
In its entire glory and might
Arraying an enchanting sight…..

My mind is the forest
Singing and dancing,
Hiding and heeding
With lost walls still painting
With tattered thoughts still writing
Swaying along the stream
Manifesting to touch my dream.

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Falling apart in the labyrinth of my own thoughts
Gazing at the sky with stars distraught
Through the moonlight hurls a stark shadow
Standing tall with all its might.

Perplexed with its surroundings
It swallows the ghastly night
Still standing, growing deep
With every hour it goes quiet….

Far it stands
For its silhouette defines it
Something unknown beckons me
Dragging me out of that burning cold meadow
Twirling my thoughts fixing my gaze
And the shadow turned towards me,
Pierced my heart because it had my face.

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But, right now I am talking about how we call them….. ‘kids’ . The ones who are almost teenagers and who are already teens. How conveniently we categorize them according to our needs and moods. For things we think they are not too big, we call them kids and for things they don’t want to do we call them grown ups.

To give it a clear thought, this specific age of 11-16 is more confusing and tough for a child than the adults. We, as adults atleast know how to conduct at a place or what are our responsibilities or what is our defined job . But these preteens and teens, they are juggling between what to do and what not to do. And this is where their attitude changes, they experience mood swings, sudden outburst of emotions, sometimes rude, sometimes sitting in their room with the door shut. Naturally, we as parents take this as arrogance, bad company, over or misuse of technology and gadgets.

I wouldn’t completely disagree to the above factors because somewhere I have also been experiencing these things. But on the other hand, after committing blunders, misunderstanding and being more than strict I realized that things are not heading the right way….. infact, I am pushing the boundaries in the opposite direction. With changing times, it is very easy for children to distract themselves or distance themselves from society, friends and even parents. these days kids feel that giving a hug to your parents is not so cool, it is not acceptable if we say a ‘no’ for any demand.

But to think it over, isn’t this what we did, fulfilled almost everything that came out of their mouth … when your kid wanted a hug you were busy in the kitchen or when she disobeyed you , you gave her a good ear full. that’s when gradually your child started distancing herself from you in her subconscious mind. That’s when she thought it is better to be with the phone than with mom. When the advise of a friend seems to be consoling, chatting with them feels far better than spending time at home.

But then, the gap has to be bridged somewhere, a connecting line has to be drawn from your end till her  end. You need to cross that bridge, have a lot (i mean a lot more than a lot) of patience, sometimes just subside that anger building up within you at an unpleasant tone or a shut door. Spend time with your grown up little one because that’s what they really want. They really want to talk, to share, to speak but to a friend, not to a mom or a dad who is ready to give them advise after every sentence. They should not fear talking about their thoughts to you. They are in a vulnerable stage where they feel trapped but want to get liberated. But its difficult to decide how and how much.

When your child reaches your height, its time to lower your hand from her head to her shoulder, become a friend, a confidante .Its ok to ignore the marks or studies sometimes, its ok to ignore the small mistakes at times, its important to also guide and instruct and also discipline them, but in a manner that does not offend or hurt them. We need to be sensitive towards our child’s feelings because they are facing such changes in their head that it becomes difficult for them to decipher it.
Be a parent, be a guide, be a teacher, but most of all , be a friend because your child can really be your best friend.

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When you tease a person or look down upon him or make him feel awkward about some of his personality traits that not only develops an inferiority complex in that being but also portrays how short on esteem you are to stoop so low.

Bullying might be in fashion these days, so common especially in youngsters but it is a silent sickness. One that spreads, one that changes you.

There are people who trouble you or tease you everywhere, but do you know….. at times, without even realising YOU are your own biggest bully.

Yes, you heard me right. Unconsciously or subconsciously we sometimes bully ourselves the most. That creates a barrier in our minds, a negative mindset towards people, towards things and most of all towards ourselves.

Off late, i have been realising that how difficult it is for me to hear something nice about myself. How tough it is to just look at the mirror and appreciate myself without having a thought that this color doesn’t suit me or i am looking a bit too plump in this dress.

Before doing anything i first cross check myself that will i be able to do it and after finishing the job, there is still an uncertainty whether what i did was upto the mark or not. So, when I repeatedly remind myself of my shortcomings i am somewhere giving myself an affirmation and settling it deep down . I criticise myself more often and judge even more. So am i my biggest bully? Yes, definitely i am.

Can i do anything about it?

Most certainly i can.

It is not a one day job. I know i am chubby, but am i comfortable in my skin? If the answer is no, then can i do something about it? Yes i can and yes i am working towards it. But its not an easy process, so should i quit or start self depreciating myself. If i cant do either, then i need to have patience and slowly walk towards my goal, be it tough or uncomfortable.

I can remind myself about the results during the process and consciously make an effort to feel good about who i am….. to accept a compliment, to mend my ways, to walk on the road to improvement, to accept how and who i am and to fix a goal who i want to be.

I am literate still ignorant about many things. And what did i do about it? I told myself that i shall make mistakes because i did, in judging people, in taking decisions, being over dependent… and this happened because i thought i did not have the capability to do it. I demeaned my own self …. yes, i bullied my own self.

Today, i learnt something new, to work on an app….. maybe a small little thing which i thought i could never do, and just then i felt that why was i telling myself all this while that i can’t do it. And it felt good, real good to know that i crossed my self created boundary by an inch. My people who really know me, instill that faith in me, yet i dwindle myself.

Last few months taught me to be able to accept myself, to make changes where i can, to sincerely work on things i need to and to smile at myself if i have done something right. Most of all agree and accept that yes i can do something right. It is neither too easy or a one day process….. But it needs to start somewhere somehow someday!!

I am not perfect, but can i do something to work on my imperfections??? Yes, i can!!! And i shall start by stop bullying myself.

P.S- Confessing, because it will only start when i accept.

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Thinking where to start from,
thoughtless thoughts swaying thereby
carelessly thoughtful trying to be
attempting to gather, still running awhile.

Time is fleeing i feel
keeping me still like the sand
trying to match it catching my breath,
still standing there posing the same stance.

To catch something new
i am missing a few
to stand still
i am losing the balance
is the pace of time too fast for me to clamp
or am i circumventing my own stamp…..

Arduously gathering the cluster from my thoughts
making way for the sun to shine
there are days dull and gloomy
waiting again for that giggle nice and bright….

Feeling the urge,
still hopelessly failing
finding faults
yet aimlessly aiming
giving time for the sand to settle
taking a deep breath for my feelings to meddle
although silently travelling across
still smiling are my Speaking Thoughts.

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I would be wrong in saying that situations don’t confront you and stop you from doing something. There are times when you really can’t help it or you are just bound not to do something.

But rest of the times, we just tend to give excuses because we could not do something, or fulfill a commitment . Excuses are  spontaneous, and once you start off you just can’t stop. Its like a virus and sometimes you even give excuses where its not needed at all.  

We all know what we want and what we do not. Confusing your own self and others doesn’t make anything better. If you really want something you will do it… you will make way for it…. that will be your priority…. And if you don’t, then its simple that its not very important for you atleast at that moment. We don’t just give excuses to others, we give the biggest and silliest excuses to our own self. I couldn’t do it this time, I was not well….. I couldn’t finish it, because I did not get time I was so busy….. that’s where you get caught in your own trap! 

We also tend to make an excuse so that the other person doesn’t feel bad. We don’t want to do something and don’t want the other person to feel hurt so instantly ‘the guests came over’ or ‘my maid fled away’ excuse comes forth. If you don’t want to go or are late to office your car breaks down or you meet with an accident excuse is ready. You haven’t called a person since many days although you have been thinking to and just then he/she calls and the life saving statement ‘ the phone was right in my hand and I was about to call you’ is right there even before you say a ‘hello’.  I can confess this happens to me more than often  

But do you know actually…. In real…. Someone once told me a sentence that  got stuck in my head….       “ we say we can’t , but what we really mean is ‘we don’t want to “. 

Since then, before giving an excuse or thinking of doing this later I think that is it my priority or am I just lazy not to do it now. We seldom think, I’ll do it later, but how sure can you be that you will have that later!!!! If you have to and you really want to do something, do it now. Make that five minutes phone call now, everybody has that much time out of 24hrs. Go meet someone if you want to, or when you know that person needs you. Do not commit a ‘yes’ when you know it’s a ‘no’, it might break somebody’s heart. When the other person expects, scolds or explains, the person cares for you, knows what you can and what you can’t.  

Maybe this is all true for me and I am the biggest example of making excuses because I ‘feel’ i might not be able to do it, but now I am making a conscious effort of giving away this habit. Procrastinating is like a drug which gets into you and doesn’t leave you that easy. So now, I shall stop giving excuses to myself because that’s where it starts from.

Make your life simple, stop giving excuses for what you don’t want to do and start doing what you want to. Make excuses or make changes, the choice is yours!  

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The bond we shared was rare, I swear,

Oh dear, It did pierce my heart when you drifted apart.

How strange it is that once we were soulmates and had turned as outsiders now.

Those colorful moments of understanding, laughter’s and shared secrets had faded today.

It’s true that when our friendship ended, it did beget heartache.

I wonder, if this happened because all your needs had been fulfilled?

Or, is that you have outgrown yourself from our comradeship.

Oh dear, It did pierce my heart when you drifted apart.

You steal glances now, if we met by a twist of fate,

Eerie silence and hostile demeanors escorts by itself.

It’s true that when our friendship ended, it did beget heartache

I discern, this phase is a part of life and growing up,

It’s natural that people change and evolve and I am bound to move on.

Oh dear, It did pierce my heart when you drifted apart.

I release you from my own shackles of grudges,

May you realize one day, how you are still missed and cared.

It’s true that when our friendship ended, it did beget heartache.

Oh dear, It did pierce my heart when you drifted apart.

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